The place God calls you is the place where your deep gladness and the world's deep hunger meet.
-Buechner

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

And The Journey Continues

I'm not really back from this so-called hiatus. I'm in the midst of a week sans kids, and making the most of it. Oh - and we made the most of our hot hot weather last week too...but that's a story in photos perhaps for another day.

Today, ironically we will head on down to the "big city" and get our fingerprinting updated.

Thursday, we will visit with a (new!) social worker to update our homestudy.

It's all a bit ironic as today marks One Year since that horrible July 2009 date when Imagine announced bankruptcy. And some of the journeys came to a jarring halt. And some of the journeys raced full steam ahead. And some of the journeys changed course and headed in a different direction. And as tragic or exciting as it is and was, that's all part of the journey. And, some of the stories we will never know.

What we do know is that we've risen. We've come a long long way. And for us, there's no turning back. These tragedies, these uncontrollable circumstances, they all happen for a reason. And though we may never truly understand the reason, I believe this journey is the one that will take us to the child who is meant to be ours. Through the tears, the anguish, the exhaustion, the anticipation, the elation, the days upon days of waiting and hoping and praying and waiting some more, this is the only way to the one predestined for us.

And though we've always known we have wanted it...wanted her...we ache for her now. It's a sensation which couldn't possibly have been known, felt, or understood had we not endured this part of this journey. So while I'm not saying it's good, it's okay, it's needed, I am saying this: It just is. It is what it is.

So we will continue on waiting and hoping and praying and waiting some more. We know our day will come. All we need to do it hold on, journey along, expect great things.

We did it.

4 comments:

Tammy said...

I can't remember where you live Ashleigh but we also headed downtown to get our fingerprints done too. I said a few choice words in the car about 'you-know-who' and how they should charge the $140 to her b/c I shouldn't have to be renewing all my paperwork again. Hard to let the hard feelings go but it is sure important to. Amazing what we all accomplished in a year and I am so thankful for our new agency.
Our families are close in # on the list and I sure hope we can even experience Ethiopia together...soon we will see our babies faces. I was hoping by August but maybe November? We'll see. :)

Chad, Laura and Sara said...

Mmm yup, "peeing my pants" pretty much sums it up! :) L

FTD said...

feeling blessed as I follow your journey :)

Meliski said...

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I saw you have a Junk Posse link on your page and we are doing a raffle for a $150 junk posse gift certificate. Tickets are $5 each and Tracy is adding something special to those who help spread the word. So, if you are interested please check it out on my blog http://thelemanskis.blogspot.com and head over to Junk Posse to see what Tracy is doing.

Thanks! :) Meliski